As they say, "You're not getting younger," Kuya Paul just reiterated it. I've heard it a lot of times. This could be another moment-of-truth in my life. Or maybe, another wake up call. Things have been smooth-but-mostly-rough-road I've been having lately, rather, in four months already. Seriously, it should not be the case. Really. There are options to consider. There are opportunities to reconsider. There is this profession to "enhance". And truth is, there is only one decision to make -- and take.
Opportunities as we all know is once in a life time. Well, it could be twice or so, but rare times do it happen. That is why, we also know this "If opportunity comes, grab it." It's like that do-or-die scenes. And we also know by heart that we, I, you, already let an opportunity passed by just like that. Now, tell me, how does it feel? I bet you would not say nothing. Because deep down, you know you have your regrets. And in the very scene, what-you-want-to-do-in-life thing came rushing through. That intense feeling. That intense desire. That "dream of a lifetime". Another as-they-say that I remember is this, "Do what makes you happy." Simple? No. It's has never been (and is not at the moment). Unless you're too lucky to have it all. Or fortunate to have everyone who surrounds you, including the universe to quite agree with it.
I don't want to live life having a-lot-of-regrets-that-I-am-not-proud-of than that of regrets-that-I-am-okay-I-did. Yeah, sounds lame. Regrets is supposed to be a sorrow aroused by circumstances beyond one's control or power to repair. Thanks to Merriam-Webster. But going back to what I've said awhile ago, we all know we have our own regrets. But not every wrong moves that we did are called such. For now, I can only wonder and wander on my own.
If only I'm smart enough to make decision. If only my pride won't get in the way. If only I'm responsible enough. If only time is stoppable, or if I can buy back it. If only making what I want in life is not that necessary. If only things are not gauge by that "standard" they impose. If only I'm good at numbers and the like. If only I can make them realize how important it is to me. If only I can follow what they want and mine too, at the same time. If only money is just money. If only I can find out the "said" path I should take. If only I can see what is it for me. If only I can see it. Maybe then and there, I not have been this confused. If only.
P.S. It should not be my first blog. Well, already is.
